[neither of them are really moving away and, honestly, things are straying forward in the direction they shouldn't be going.
or rather shouldn't if anyone were properly supervising them. there is a small part of jin ling that remembers who they'll have to face if they're caught but--- his uncle is less scary now that jin ling towers over him and if hanguang-jun tries to kill him what a memory to have as he goes.
the hindbrain chasing 'this feels good with the boy i like' wins out over reason. it might have something to do with the way sizhui is touching his neck, which is something new jin ling learns about himself as the first firm touch earns a gasp and a shudder.
but! he focuses.] Only a little. [wait, wrong focus.] Um. [he shakes his head.] No, I definitely want to be alone like this. [which is a level of openness and vulnerability that used to only be accompanied by word vomit and maybe a few tears, years ago. look at that growth.
his words are honest this time and he's not stopping his hands as they slide up to sizhui's hips, holding him close.] We--- should let them know though. Our uncles and uh.. Hanguang-jun. But after we've spent a little time alone.
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or rather shouldn't if anyone were properly supervising them. there is a small part of jin ling that remembers who they'll have to face if they're caught but--- his uncle is less scary now that jin ling towers over him and if hanguang-jun tries to kill him what a memory to have as he goes.
the hindbrain chasing 'this feels good with the boy i like' wins out over reason. it might have something to do with the way sizhui is touching his neck, which is something new jin ling learns about himself as the first firm touch earns a gasp and a shudder.
but! he focuses.] Only a little. [wait, wrong focus.] Um. [he shakes his head.] No, I definitely want to be alone like this. [which is a level of openness and vulnerability that used to only be accompanied by word vomit and maybe a few tears, years ago. look at that growth.
his words are honest this time and he's not stopping his hands as they slide up to sizhui's hips, holding him close.] We--- should let them know though. Our uncles and uh.. Hanguang-jun. But after we've spent a little time alone.