[ Jin Guangyao may not know that he managed to get a laugh out of him but he likes to imagine that he did, and would be quite pleased to know he is right. (Well, he is always pleased to be right but still.)
People can be very complicated indeed and schemes can be even more complicated. If there is one thing he genuinely regrets about his plans then it is that they resulted in Lan Xichen suffering heartache. So he can at least try to bring him small joys now by being agreeable, or at least lessen the worries he causes him. ]
Forgive me. That was quite possibly rude of me. I appreciate how mindful you are, and that you seek to keep me involved. [ Even if it is only an illusion of agency he still appreciates it, sitting locked away in not-so-voluntary seclusion. ] You have been far kinder to me already than I have any right to ask for, considering what transpired.
[well, he's about to find out, seeing as sizhui will tell him! after he takes a minute to consider why jin guangyao felt like he needed to ask to be forgiven, he shakes his head, tries to not think about it too much. having someone apologizing to him over something so simple feels... odd, to put it lightly.
if there's one thing he wants to try at some point: it's asking jin ling to come visit his uncle. the lan disciple has no idea what sort of reaction that'll rouse, but perhaps it's something the both of them might find solace in. (or maybe it'd be the wrong thing and have the worst effect, given the circumstances?)]
You've no reason to apologize, I found it amusing. I know time must run together while one is by themselves, so I don't know, telling you about things that are going on feels like it might help ease the monotony.[while he'd much rather not consider what happened again:]A little kindness can go a long way. “Be easy on others,” and “love all beings,” are part of Gusu Lan Clan's rules.
Your rules are very wise. [ More than empty flattery, even. He does think of these rules as wise and kind and many other good things, or else he wouldn't love Lan Xichen so very much who embodies all the best of them. He just hasn't found them particularly well-suited to his own life. ]
If you don't mind, I would enjoy hearing about the going-ons in Cloud Recesses, or whatever you are willing and able to share with me. It does get rather dull here. Er-ge ensures I'm provided with books for my entertainment but there are only so many books you can read before the appeal fades.
Thank you, Lianfang-zun.[considering his earlier jin-zongzhu might not technically be appropriate anymore and, keeping in mind his current circumstances, it makes sense why the rules wouldn't be companionable.]
I completely understand what you mean with the books. I'm sorry there isn't more we can provide you for entertainment, but if you are truly interested in the happenings within Cloud Recesses, I'd be more than willing to share whatever I'm allowed to with you! Oh, and I could maybe play some music for you sometime if you're ever interested in that?
Jin Guangyao sits there, puzzling over the message and wondering if the boy knows what a loaded history there is to him and Lan music. If it were anyone else he would have taken this offer for a barbed jab, even, yet this boy seems far too proper and honest for such underhanded tactics. ]
I would enjoy listening to your music, if you think you are allowed to play it for me. You will want to inquire. I would hate for your kindness to be rewarded with punishment.
[ But he would like it, even if he isn't allowed anywhere near musical instruments after he has proven to weaponize his skill with them. It would be nice to listen to music, at least. It's not like he expects Lan Xichen will ever again be able to stomach playing for him without being reminded of the one song he will forever regret teaching him. ]
[sizhui knows enough, he was there in the end, after all—
but the offer is completely, one-hundred-percent harmless and wholehearted and so long as he's the one playing the music, there surely wouldn't be any harm in it? despite being fully-aware of meng yao's rather chaotic past with their music, it's one of the only things he can think of that they have left for entertainment besides calligraphy.]
I'll do so.[even though he would've accepted whatever punishment handed out if that hadn't been suggested.]I had another possible idea, but I'm unsure how Zewu-jun might respond. Whenever I get there, I'll ask your opinion first.
[hanguang-jun certainly won't be pleased with the plan should he put it out there afterward... but sizhui's proven himself capable. oh, and while his playing isn't quite lan xichen's (so it won't be the same), it's still quite adept and will hopefully prove a decent replacement.]
[ Vague allusions are the best way to catch his interest and ensure it will be held. Lan Sizhui might realize it or not but Jin Guangyao has never been able to resist the opportunity to dig up secrets and hoard them. They are, after all, his favorite currency, and the curiosity remains even when the secrets in question are perfectly harmless and likely to be of a more domestic nature.
Yet...]
I wouldn't want you to do anything which will earn you Zewu-jun's displeasure, or cause him discomfort. Least of all on my behalf. I trouble him enough by requiring him to host me.
[gusu lan clan are forbidden to lie but secrets, however; those are different now, aren't they? secrets can be completely, one-hundred-percent harmless depending on who's sharing them! perhaps they're not something he should have with meng yao of all people, that doesn't seem like enough of a deterrent (for some reason).]
If Zewu-jun thought it was any trouble, I doubt he would host you, Lianfang-zun. Worry not, as I said, I'll ask your opinion on the idea once I arrive.
Which should be soon![and the next time they chat, it'll be in person rather than over messages.]
[ When Lan Sizhui arrives, Jin Guangyao opens the door to him perfectly poised and perfectly calm, and eager only to the extent to which it is polite to show eagerness so as not to make a guest feel unwelcome.
As if he hasn't been impatiently awaiting his visit, fussing with his small home though he hardly even has the opportunity to get it cluttered or dirty.
He greets him with a deep bow, as graceful as it had been during his best times, his voice just as demurely pleasant as he greets ] Lan-gongzi, you humble me with your visit.
[it's fortunate jin guangyao answers the door at the perfect moment or else sizhui's not sure he would've been able to properly knock and let him know he's arrived. the lan disciple visibly brightens, returns the bow with one of his own, straightens and smiles afterward.] And you flatter me with your acceptance.
[he glances toward the tray he's got carefully balanced in one hand, considers the round bread loaf, small bowl of soup, raw vegetables and few freshly-rolled dumplings then redirects his attention back to jin guangyao.]
I do hope you are hungry... When I asked for extra food, I didn't expect them to give so much.
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People can be very complicated indeed and schemes can be even more complicated. If there is one thing he genuinely regrets about his plans then it is that they resulted in Lan Xichen suffering heartache. So he can at least try to bring him small joys now by being agreeable, or at least lessen the worries he causes him. ]
Forgive me. That was quite possibly rude of me. I appreciate how mindful you are, and that you seek to keep me involved. [ Even if it is only an illusion of agency he still appreciates it, sitting locked away in not-so-voluntary seclusion. ] You have been far kinder to me already than I have any right to ask for, considering what transpired.
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if there's one thing he wants to try at some point: it's asking jin ling to come visit his uncle. the lan disciple has no idea what sort of reaction that'll rouse, but perhaps it's something the both of them might find solace in. (or maybe it'd be the wrong thing and have the worst effect, given the circumstances?)]
You've no reason to apologize, I found it amusing. I know time must run together while one is by themselves, so I don't know, telling you about things that are going on feels like it might help ease the monotony. [while he'd much rather not consider what happened again:] A little kindness can go a long way. “Be easy on others,” and “love all beings,” are part of Gusu Lan Clan's rules.
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If you don't mind, I would enjoy hearing about the going-ons in Cloud Recesses, or whatever you are willing and able to share with me. It does get rather dull here. Er-ge ensures I'm provided with books for my entertainment but there are only so many books you can read before the appeal fades.
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I completely understand what you mean with the books. I'm sorry there isn't more we can provide you for entertainment, but if you are truly interested in the happenings within Cloud Recesses, I'd be more than willing to share whatever I'm allowed to with you! Oh, and I could maybe play some music for you sometime if you're ever interested in that?
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Jin Guangyao sits there, puzzling over the message and wondering if the boy knows what a loaded history there is to him and Lan music. If it were anyone else he would have taken this offer for a barbed jab, even, yet this boy seems far too proper and honest for such underhanded tactics. ]
I would enjoy listening to your music, if you think you are allowed to play it for me. You will want to inquire. I would hate for your kindness to be rewarded with punishment.
[ But he would like it, even if he isn't allowed anywhere near musical instruments after he has proven to weaponize his skill with them. It would be nice to listen to music, at least. It's not like he expects Lan Xichen will ever again be able to stomach playing for him without being reminded of the one song he will forever regret teaching him. ]
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but the offer is completely, one-hundred-percent harmless and wholehearted and so long as he's the one playing the music, there surely wouldn't be any harm in it? despite being fully-aware of meng yao's rather chaotic past with their music, it's one of the only things he can think of that they have left for entertainment besides calligraphy.]
I'll do so. [even though he would've accepted whatever punishment handed out if that hadn't been suggested.] I had another possible idea, but I'm unsure how Zewu-jun might respond. Whenever I get there, I'll ask your opinion first.
[hanguang-jun certainly won't be pleased with the plan should he put it out there afterward... but sizhui's proven himself capable. oh, and while his playing isn't quite lan xichen's (so it won't be the same), it's still quite adept and will hopefully prove a decent replacement.]
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Yet...]
I wouldn't want you to do anything which will earn you Zewu-jun's displeasure, or cause him discomfort. Least of all on my behalf. I trouble him enough by requiring him to host me.
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If Zewu-jun thought it was any trouble, I doubt he would host you, Lianfang-zun. Worry not, as I said, I'll ask your opinion on the idea once I arrive.
Which should be soon! [and the next time they chat, it'll be in person rather than over messages.]
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As if he hasn't been impatiently awaiting his visit, fussing with his small home though he hardly even has the opportunity to get it cluttered or dirty.
He greets him with a deep bow, as graceful as it had been during his best times, his voice just as demurely pleasant as he greets ] Lan-gongzi, you humble me with your visit.
87 years later..... lmao god i'm sorry
[he glances toward the tray he's got carefully balanced in one hand, considers the round bread loaf, small bowl of soup, raw vegetables and few freshly-rolled dumplings then redirects his attention back to jin guangyao.]
I do hope you are hungry... When I asked for extra food, I didn't expect them to give so much.